Dad sent me a nice message

[Kevin]

Dad sent me a message.

At the risk of sounding like a weirdo or something, I believe I got a message from my Dad. It has helped me to deal with his passing.

There was a moment last night when I was feeling sad and blue. It was the worst I had felt all day. I was missing my Dad as I sat on the couch barely aware of the television. I was thinking mostly good thoughts about my Dad, but it made me feel melancholy and a deep sense of loss. Then, I started to play the events of my Dad’s hospital stay in my head and thinking – “What if I had done this, and what if I had done that, differently?” I know, not a good road to go down.

I got up to get something out of the closet. It was the closet my Dad used when he’d stay with me sometimes. I paused before opening it, looked upward and said to my Dad: “I love you, Dad. I miss you, buddy.” Opened the closet door, rested my hand on the shelf overhead and felt something. It was a couple of cards from Dad – Birthday and Easter. One wished good things to happen for me every day, and the other expressed what a wonderful son I was and how much I meant to him. Of course, I cried. It was as if my Dad spoke to me. Telling me it was okay, he loved me, and wanted me to have a good life.

I mean what are the odds I’d find those cards at that moment? They didn’t even belong on that shelf. And my hand landed right on them.

I know it was coincidence, but it’s a touching and timely one. Yes, I know many psychics claim there is no such thing as “coincidence.” All I know is that it was very cool and made me feel instantly better about my Dad’s passing. I’ve been feeling the warmth of his love and smiling over good memories ever since.

While I’d like to think I’m doing very well, all things considered, I know I still have plenty of grieving to do. As positive and loved as I felt, it took me an hour to crawl out of bed this morning and I didn’t leave my apartment till noon. I seem to be moving in slow motion as time speeds by me.

My thanks and appreciation to all of you for sending me your condolences, kind words and prayers. They are welcomed. I still can’t believe so many people care about me, my Dad and the crew at Palladium books. Maybe your prayers and the message from my father are working, because while I have a heavy heart and feel sluggish, I also feel strangely positive. As if everything will be okay, and that my Dad wants me to be happy.

Thanks for listening to my Murmur. I hope it wasn’t too weird or personal.

Give your loved ones an extra hug tonight and make sure they know how much they mean to you. Love and be loved. Find joy and revel in it as long as you can. Unleash those imaginations, dare to dream and game on.

Sincerely,
Kevin Siembieda

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